undeserving
Jun. 18th, 2004 01:23 amI just typed out all this crazy stuff, poem-shaped but not a poem. And then I deleted it. I never delete anything. It was a good thing to do. It feels too vain to let everything one creates exist without question.
I kind of started writing this story tonight. I didn't delete it. I'm excited but I don't want to jinx myself.
It's so hard to get over the fact that this is summer. It's both hard to believe and so natural a reality that I can't imagine it ever ending. But it will and I'll move to Richmond, Indiana and go to Earlham College and spend four years involved in studies and figuring out my life and eventually I need to take a few steps back to take it all in. But not tonight! Tonight I sleep.
(I got a meningitis vaccination today. My left arm feels a little funny but it's entirely worth it. College dorms and meningitis unfortunately go hand-in-hand.)
I kind of started writing this story tonight. I didn't delete it. I'm excited but I don't want to jinx myself.
It's so hard to get over the fact that this is summer. It's both hard to believe and so natural a reality that I can't imagine it ever ending. But it will and I'll move to Richmond, Indiana and go to Earlham College and spend four years involved in studies and figuring out my life and eventually I need to take a few steps back to take it all in. But not tonight! Tonight I sleep.
(I got a meningitis vaccination today. My left arm feels a little funny but it's entirely worth it. College dorms and meningitis unfortunately go hand-in-hand.)